It’s been a while since my last post but I’ve been saving up and meticulously planning for a solid drop when the time felt right. I’ve been working perdiem in an emergency room as a nurse apprentice outside a city on the west coast while finishing my RN which I will soon complete and then…
Happy Emergency Nurses Week
Every day I get to go to work, I act as though I don’t deserve to be there. I feel like an imposter. I feel like I’m on the verge of ruining everything and getting fired. But I’ve found out, as a baby nurse, this feeling is expected. What fears that once ate me alive…
So I Did a Beauty Pageant
“We are all connected; To each other, biologically. To the earth, chemically. To the rest of the universe atomically.” -Neil deGrasse Tyson That summer, I took up a job in medical records in my dad’s office where I spent the day in a basement inputting patient’s labs and health history forms. It was a grueling…
Dimestore Cowgirl
Shortly after I was fit for my prosthetic, my mom insisted I participate in the local beauty pageant. Barf. I was drugged up and missing a hand but sure. Why not? At that time I wore my prosthetic daily and was getting used to being stared at by people wherever I went. I stopped caring…
Riding Through the Storm
I returned home to notes covering my bed from everyone in my life. Notes of sympathy, encouragement, admirance. I felt so incredibly loved. The weirdest notes were from people containing gift cards. Sorry you lost your hand to cancer, hope Amazon, iTunes, or Panda Express make you feel better. You could’ve sent me a post…
Sad but Pretty
I went to my winter formal at the time knowing that that Tuesday following the weekend, would forever change my life. I took a bath the Sunday night before we left for UCLA and I looked at my hands. I would never be a neurosurgeon with one hand. My hands were pretty. My mom insisted…
PTSD pt. 1
Let’s talk about PTSD Bay-Bee! Let’s talk about you and me! So. We again, interrupt this blog to write about the current status of the author. Last week I spoke about starting a new job in the emergency room to which I will add, It is amazing! And I’m not saying that at the risk…
Sarcoma.
I volunteer for a children’s cancer camp for an organization that works with families of children battling brain cancers, sarcomas, and leukemia. Each volunteer is assigned a family to counsel for the weekend. It’s in a forest next to the beach where the weekend is dedicated to believing and hoping. The kids get to play…
Impostor Syndrome as a Baby Nurse
We take a minute to interrupt the currently streaming blog to the reality of the author. I have accepted an offer to work as a nurse apprentice until I finish my RN degree. For those of you who are unclear what a nurse apprentice is: they are essentially unlicensed nurses who may perform skills that…
Pancakes
Some of my best memories I have of growing up with my dad are making pancakes. My dad and I were both early risers and found ourselves in the kitchen in the early morning whisking egg whites until they were firm and folding them into batter, only to make the fluffiest pancakes. National Geographic had…
One Handed BAB 